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Same Old, Same old
Jan. 23rd, 2009 07:48 amMr Ward was saying earlier this week that he must be a nightmare dinner guest, since he didn't have a TV and his musical tastes could hardly be described as mainstream.
I kind of know how he feels. The world is just in a marking time situation for me at the moment, which isn't good (I should be out there living life to the full, I know) but isn't bad (at least I am beginning to accumulate the money that will pay off the mortgage in a few years' time. Sometimes you just have to knuckle down rather than live hedonistically. Although, when I think about it, I'm not sure why I shouldn't just live hedonistically; not in my character, I guess).
It's the same in the financial world. I'm still short the FTSE, I'm still waiting for sterling to weaken another 10% or so against the dollar (15% against the euro). I'm still reading stuff that is shocking but unsurprising (Banco Santander's selling of Madoff stuff is particularly intersting). But, all in all, the financial world seems to be catching up with what has been written here for more than a year. I'm just marking time, waiting for something interesting and unpredictable to happen.
And in life it's the same. I know what's going on. I don't want to talk about it. It's all fairly miserable, in a Birks kind of way (i.e., I'll survive, situation normal, etc). I don't want to hurt people, so I let things run their course so other people feel better about themselves. Believe it or not, for a man whom people seem to think relishes confrontation, I've never been one for massive emotional bust-ups or rows. There's no satisfaction to be gained in hurting people.
Will this year be another wasted one? I hope not. Have I got the guts to go out and grab life by the balls to make sure that it isn't? I doubt it.
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I kind of know how he feels. The world is just in a marking time situation for me at the moment, which isn't good (I should be out there living life to the full, I know) but isn't bad (at least I am beginning to accumulate the money that will pay off the mortgage in a few years' time. Sometimes you just have to knuckle down rather than live hedonistically. Although, when I think about it, I'm not sure why I shouldn't just live hedonistically; not in my character, I guess).
It's the same in the financial world. I'm still short the FTSE, I'm still waiting for sterling to weaken another 10% or so against the dollar (15% against the euro). I'm still reading stuff that is shocking but unsurprising (Banco Santander's selling of Madoff stuff is particularly intersting). But, all in all, the financial world seems to be catching up with what has been written here for more than a year. I'm just marking time, waiting for something interesting and unpredictable to happen.
And in life it's the same. I know what's going on. I don't want to talk about it. It's all fairly miserable, in a Birks kind of way (i.e., I'll survive, situation normal, etc). I don't want to hurt people, so I let things run their course so other people feel better about themselves. Believe it or not, for a man whom people seem to think relishes confrontation, I've never been one for massive emotional bust-ups or rows. There's no satisfaction to be gained in hurting people.
Will this year be another wasted one? I hope not. Have I got the guts to go out and grab life by the balls to make sure that it isn't? I doubt it.
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